I discovered why little boys leave the toiliet seat up...

Jer wandered into the bathroom this morning to pee, I was still in bed. I heard a loud thud and lots of crying. I sprang out of bed and ran to him.
He was holding his weiner (his word) and jumping all over the place crying OW OW OW IT HURTS IT HURRRRRTS!!!!!!
I kept asking him "what happened?"
and finally he said "I went to pee an the toilet lid came down and smashed me and its your fault for sleeping"

Well hot damn ,I apparenly do Jedi mind tricks in my sleep and OUCH poor kid.

I think he will live but he wont let me give him a bath, or ice it. At his age he cant really be worried about shrinkage, can he?
Watching for a whole new set of blueballs :(

xoxo
h

A great quote!

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't , and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it." - Harvey Mackay -


and I have to add..."each new day, I have a CHOICE!"
xoxox
h

hmm

most definitly how my heart feels today. Completely and utterly ALONE. As if I could sit up here in my heavenly little condo and die..and noone would even notice. My kids are here but that not what I'm talking about.
I dont know, maybe I"m simply feeling sorry for myself but it's doozy of a day!

A Meme!

1. Are you single? no, happily taken
2. Are your parents still married? Yes 36 or so years now I think
3. Are you in love? yes
4. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes
5. Who ended your last relationship? I did
6. Have you ever been hurt by a break up? yes
7. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? yes
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer? hmmm, not that I'm aware of
9. Prefer love or lust? love
10. Prefer a few best friends or many regular friends? a few best friends
11. Wild night out or romantic night in? night in
12. Back in the day: Been caught sneaking out? no, cause I never did it
13. Ever wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? yes
14. Who are/is your best friend(s)? here-Rach and Chris...in Reno Ali and Niki!
15. Ever wanted to disappear?yep
16. First attraction: Smile or eyes? eys
17. Prefer intelligence or attraction? attraction
18. Last phone call you received? JoAnna
19. Last thing you drank? milk
20. Before your current one, when was your last relationship? the past 7 yrs
21. Do you and your family get along? yes
22. Would you say you have a "screwed up life"? no
23. Have you ever gotten kicked out somewhere? If yes, do tell. Ummm not that I remember
24. Do you trust all your friends? Yes. I recently learned how to open up and trust...ITS NOT EASY!
25. Who knows the most about you? The 4 friends mentioned above

Sheer Blahdom

3:31am

I am at work. Yes, work. I work graveyards as a CNA at an assisted living facility. Most nights..I have to be honest...I freaking love my job.
Most nights I can tell you hilarious stories about crazy dutch ladies punching me in the face, or 4"10' hobbits trying to throw chairs through the window's to get out of the place, OR the insane shit the girls I work with and I come up with..really we should start a whole new blog just about the madness. I think it'd be a smash, look out Perez...old crazy people and young, hilarious, hyper aides? We could take over the world!
Tonight
IS REDICULOUSLY LAME. Absolutely nothing going on here. I've taken aout 15 Facebook quizzes, scoured blogland for new reads (that im excited about)..I've watched some VH1 show..Black to the 80's, followed by Black to the 90's, and of course Black to the new millenium. Is it PC to put a show on about the Black perspective to the decades?
I mean, not trying to ruffle feathers but if I put Whitey's in the 90's...wouldnt I get mugged or shot?
anyway maybe I'll be back if this blahness continues. It's time to take the house dogs outside for a freezing cold pee!

xoxo H

my zen

ok I'm having major technical diffiulties. However there is a video that I want to share, that I am commiting to make myself watch, anytime I start to doubt myself.
Please watch it

xoxox
h


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMOMgQCRAqM

Mother Nature calls..

and I want to hit ignore!!!

Life is great, fantastic, honestly im happy! But mother nature showed up Friday and she is definitly testing my patience. She's a rediculously rude houseguest. So im going to curl up and do nothing until she leaves!

Thank God that Twilight is out so I have something to get lost in!

xoxo

h

I'm going to whore out my business on the internet!!

I just started working for a new company and I'm uber excited about their newest product that is he next MUST HAVE piece of technology. Check out ACN's digital video phone in the link below, it is amazing!!!

http://www.heathersollis.acnrep.com/c_products_digitalphone.asp?CO_LA=US_EN&BW=LOW


I am so excited for my parents to have this to keep in touch with my brothers family as they move out of state next month! What an amazing way to stay connected!!

ok whoring done!

oxox
h

my favorite holiday ;) (ok ok, maybe 2nd to christmas!)

Like the warmth of the sun and the light of the day,
May the luck of the Irish shine bright on your way.

no LOL's NO BULLSHIT

I stole the term drogging....drunk...blogging...freaking amazing right???


I havent had a drink at home alone...since i moved out of my EX's house.OUR home...over 7 months ago.

The kids are sleeping, have been for hours. I indulged on vodka/crans and finished off one bottle of wine that has been glaring at me for entirely to long...there's more calling my name.

and its time

to be honest and real and to be just me..raw..stripped..whatever bubblegum poptart's album name you want to call it...its me.


99.9% of the time. i am happy. I am beyond thrilled with my life now. What I have accomplished, where I have been, where I have come...on my own... I am closer to my family than I have ever been!!! I am a better mother to my 2 boys...than I have ever been. I have the best friends..and the greatest boyfriend I've ever had! I have a job, I love. I have a car, I chose. I have a condo...that people would die to stay in..I have quiet time with my kids..party time with my friends..alone time with the amazing boyfriend..
The cherry on top....???? All these pieces fit together..all my adult life I've waited for the pieces of my life to collide..and I feared the outcome and now....they've collided and EMBRACED!!!I cant tell you what a blessing it is to feel the pieces of my life come together and complete this puzzle i've been left with for so long.I owe a world of gratitude to those that have stuck by me, that experience life with me ,day to day. That is another post...this is about the pain, the past...not this beautiful life that has embraced me now..


because there IS that point 01!!! every now and then it creeps into my life...the hurt, the pain, the shame, the sadness. What happened? What did I do? How did this happen? This is not the life I pictured. I know it's better...I KNOW...but still....i cant deny that last little tip of my heart that wonders, that hurts, that I try to ignore. The glow of my little boys deep blue eyes that makes me wonder, can I do this??? Are they better off? Did I do the right thing? Am I what they really need?
Do we all feel this pain? or is it just me?
And I wallow!! ohhh can I wallow..I can cry and listen to sappy shit and reminise with the best of them..believe you me, I can and I do..



and then.......it hits me.

I DID WHAT I HAD TO. I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE. I AM HAPPIER. THOSE LITTLE BOYS..WILL BE BETTER OFF. THEY ARE BETTER OFF. THEY ARE HAPPY AND THRIVING AND I DONT DARE MISS ANOTHER SECOND. I TAKE A FEW DEEP BREATHS...LOOK IN THE MIRROR...AND TELL MYSELF..I WILL BE OK. I WILL BE BETTER THAN OK. I AM HAPPY, UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY.....and I CHOOSE to let myself wallow in that to.

and it feels INCREDIBLE

xoxox

h

updates

**didnt mean for that pic to be so big...do not read into it as my ego taking over my brain...it's currently in a battle with something called my poor self image and is to busy to be concerned with my blog!!

**Henry, the dog is not with us anymore. 1 unpottytrained dog, 2 insane children, a very small condo...made me crazy! but I did find im a good home!

Belated Intro to me and mine

Sorry for my absence, I've been dealing with writers block! So I thought it was high time you see me and those I talk about frequently...for me its always easier to picture who I'm reading about! First of all..Me! This pic was taken last summer when I was in Reno visiting my dear friend Ally! I am sunburned as hell!!! However, it's still one of my favorite pics!

Next up, the kiddos. I have so many cute pics of them of course. It's taken me forever to decide which ones to use...thanks to m BFF Rach (photographer extraordanaire) I have some precious ones that arent blurred, blocked by my finger, or smeared by a lens covered in Peanut Butter! So here's Jayden, he's 5, and Jarret, he's 3.

awwwww precious huh? I know I'm a tad biased but I think they should have been baby Gap models (ohhh trust me I tried, sick huh?).

I'd put up a pic of the new man, I just dont know that he'd like that a whole hell of alot...I guess I'll have to mention that. hmmmm

ok ok so there's us ;) and I finally have some good blogging ideas brewing so stay tuned!

xoxo
h

GIDDY

Chris came up and stayed with me this weekend, in fact he's next to me on his laptop as I'm typing ;) Maybe someday we'll get a guest post from him or something. All I can say about this weekend is complete BLISS. We hung with the kids, we cooked, we cleaned we went dancing! We slept together, slept in..slept with a kid between us (thank god my bed is king size!) We were a completely normal, domestic couple and I loved it!!!!

xo

h