DoubleTime

Last night, I got to work out of a hotel, hang out with my fellow CNA's, eat junk, watch tv, just hang out all night...and I got paid doubletime for it!

sometimes natural disasters (a room caving in) are a fantastic thing!

xoxo

h

ps...here's to dancing toinght! CHEERS!

Why kids are friggin awesome

After working all night 10:30-7am..I pick up the kidlets from the EX I make sure they've gone potty before we leave..cause nothing sucks more that getting them buckled and driving to blocks and hearing "i have to go pottty!!!!!!!"...well ALOMOST nothing.

We were waiting for a friend of mine and Jer, my newest potty master says he has too poop! Now!! so I drive all freakin over trying to find a bathroom..almost 10 minutes later I find a gas station and rush him in there..he tried..kinda..and couldnt go. So Jayden went and we went back to our rendezvous point. We werent there 5 minutes when Jer announced
"I just pooped my pants!"

ARGH!!!
NO WIPES! NOWHERE TO GO! Thank god my friend had kleenex's and bottled water in her car..I macguyvered that shit! I didnt want to carry the poppy clothes in my car..so i was awful and simply threw them in the closest garbage dumpster!

When the past collides with your future, it must be the present.

How do we go into a new relationship and not carry the baggage from the last one over?



I was almost 8 years in with Justin (the ex). I've known him since I was 18. It was a whirlwind (read LDS) engagement and before I knew it I'd left Ricks College (read now, BYU-Idaho) with my MRS. degree and I thought I had life completely figured out.

7 years later and a pending divorce, there's alot I've learned. Some important stuff mixed in with trivial things like

*the game of football actually makes sense to me now-there's a life skill I NEED.

*Men love to talk about their shits. Seriously? I don't want to come look at it!!!



and I could probably go on if I thought hard enough about it. That's not why I'm here.

As I venture into a new love..I'm terrified of pinning Chris to the wall for things --that are fears, insecurities, or defenses from my old relationship. I find myself expecting him to react the same ways Justin would have, which isn't fair at all.



One thing I had to admit to myself was this. I am in the first romantic, ADULT, relationship of my life. I was a kid when I met Justin and we very much stayed in that space. Now, I know who I am and what I want. I have found someone that fufills those things and amazes me more and more each day.
Face it, I'm a goner. AND IM LOVING IT!!!

xoxox

h

just blah

I dont normally like to bitch on my blog..and I have alot to be grateful for..so I'm going to do a bit of both.

Bitch

the ex...I hate dealing with him. I hate that we have to talk to work things out.. GRRRRRR

I am on about 2 hours of sleep and my period started, so I'm certainly no ray of sunshine at the moment!! Not to mention, I'm not lookin so hot.

2 crazy kids + 1 new puppy+ small condo with no yard= utter chaos!!


However...
I have a wonderful, supportive, boyfriend. A family that is bending over backwards to help me whenever I need it and fantastic friends.

Life really will be ok! I am creating peace, love, and safety!!

xoxo
h

note to the internets

....not my orange carpet below! just FYI!

Sleepy Saturday Morning

It was Chris's birthday yesterday so we dropped the kids with my parents and headed out to go dancing! We had a great time hanging with friends. It was a long drive home and a late night after that ;) mmmm Happy Birthday and love you baby! xo

We got a new dog yesterday, Henry, I'll post a pic, he's an adorable beagle. He's so well behaved, its the kids that drive me nuts, they wont leave him alone!!!

Ah well..what can you do but enjoy?

The whirlwind so far

I'm going to try to bring you up to speed, without boring or loosing you...so lets begin.

Left my husband in July, just now getting the divorce going..it's a long story, you don't wanna know, just trust it's a good thing! So send the congratulations, not the condolences.

Decided to go back to work, out of sheer necessity. Back to school, got my CNA!

New Job-graveyard CNA-not the most desired schedule but its great for my kids. They sleep at the grandparents. I get to tuck them in and am there to wake them up.

New Condo-it's freakin amazing,

New Car-2009 Hyundai Sonata

The most important...The New Man- Chris. Absolutely amazing. I'm falling more deliriously in love every day. Our story is just beginning and I'm so excited.

The things that have stuck...my 2 precocious, precious little boys. Jayden who's 5 & 1/2, and Jarret who is 3 &1/2.

Alot going on, but I am excited for the journey and to share it!

(whew, that wasnt so bad now was it)

xo

h