It's a Beautiful Day

I feel blessed today. I am overwhelmed with gratitude today..grateful for my life, my kids, my love, my family, the beautiful place where I live.

This week has been tumultuous. the EX FINALLY filed the divorce papers! I am grateful for that to, it is definitly time! I will admit though, having the papers in hand, seeing the finaity of it..was hard to take. Not because I want to go back-but because I cling to a small part of me that feels like a failure. Being 26 and a mom of 2, having a failed marriage, can be a tough pill to swallow. However, I know that I did the right thing and I am clear with where I am at in my life.


The boyfriend and I (he will now be called BF) had a bump in the road and for a time it seemed that maybe we werent going to make it. I have never cried, prayed, or grieved like I did. I finally chose love. I held my hand over my heart and asked mysef over and over what I had, what I wanted, and what I needed-and I saw him in all of thoe answers. I know that I love him and that he loves me. We do all make mistakes and I do believe in forgiveness..and moving forward with purpose. We have redefined our relationship, restated our wants and needs and I think it was good to clear the air.

Something I learned about myself, while I thought I was "being strong"..really I was being bitter and letting my past, affect us...letting it wrap my heart in ice and keep me frigid and downright bitchy.
Finally after alot of tears, alot of talking,alot of time to think, and I'll admit, alot of drinks here and there..we are back on track..
We went out dancing last night and it was a blast! I was feeling it this morning, but looking at the gorgeous day awaiting me, I feel amazing.
I'm gonna go and soak up some sunshine!
xoxox
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