I have burried all feelings at a depth I didn't think anyone could get to. Locked the pain away, turning it into a dull aching that I can numb with enough self -destruction.
However, I hear things, see things, read things, and suddenly I find myself erupting from the very core. The hurt oozing out of me like hot lava, burning every inch of me as it flows over my pours.
I have never been made to feel so good and so bad, by the same person. Never allowed mysef to continue to be hurt by someone, long after I've cut the cord.
I've never loved and hated someone so much at the same time. Never wanted someone as far away from me as I can get them...and at the same time...long to be in their arms.
You know who you are...and you'll never understand the damage you have done and continue to do. Enjoy your next victim, your sultry bartender, perhaps your next soulmate?????? Parade her around the same friends and same life, that you once paraded me...making me look like a damn fool for perhaps the millionth time in our twisted tale...
take pleasure in knowing that YES i DO fucking care...and yes I DO hurt!
feel better? laugh at that..smile at that...fluff that up and blog it! I hate that I even care.
Like a waterfall in slow motion, Part One
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She wants her planet back. Woolfy – “Shooting Stars” Funny how his voice in
this song made me think he was singing ratchet instead of rapture. I heard
this...
2 years ago
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